1. I've spent my life playing someone else.
2. I play someone else so often that I have a hard time differentiating between myself and others.
3. I live inside my head.
4. The majority of the things that I love, are not even real.
5. I'm always going to believe.
6. I'm watching Billy Elliot with my Mom.
7. I had a weird dream last night.
8. I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing.
9. I want to read.
10. What am I doing here?

1. I have not written a blog in a while.
2. I'm watching So You Think You Can Dance with my Mom.
3. Prescott is moving soon.
4. I'm really enjoying Summer Stock at the Studio.
5. I'm afraid that I'm going to get vocal nodules because someone planted the seed into my mind hoping to nurture my paranoia.
6. Does anyone remember when I was in love with Usher? Hopefully none of you remember.
7. I really enjoyed going canoing so I'm going to tell you again. I had a good time!
8. I really hope that I get to see John, Carrie and Margaret tomorrow!
9. I've got to get the FREEDOM karaoke! GAH!
10. Why are the dancers on t.v. wearing knee pads if I didn't get to wear any as a MUNCHKIN?!
11. Prescott showed me this video.
12. Summer and Nick are thugs.
13. Tyler and Melissa are the best wheelchair dancers ever!
14. WHAT IS THIS JUSTIN BEIBER VIDEO DOING ON MY TELEVISION?!
15. I want to tap dance. Show people anyone?
16. I really, really want to get to New York this summer!
17. But at the same time, I want to go somewhere else instead.
18. David is in India!
19. I feel like I need to be watch the WORLD CUP!
20. I'm getting really down about my singing and I don't really give a damn what anyone else has to say about it.
21. I need to take a shower and I need to go to the bathroom.. teehee...
22. I think I ate your chocolate squirrel.
23. A SPIDER JUST CRAWLED ACROSS MY MOM!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
24. If I don't get some sleep soon I am going to kill myself. :)
25. What did Batman tell Robin to get him in the car?
26. Get in the car.
27. Do you know why I am wearing lemon pants?!
28. BECAUSE I RIPPED MY CHEETAH PANTS WHEN I WAS BEING A SEXY MURDERESS.
29. I worry too much.
30. Passion.
31. I've got to finish writing my soda can/potato scene.
32. Piper is changing the channel!
33. I love SUGAR. Kelly knows who I am talking about.
34. If you ever need me, call me and I will be there. I promise.

1. My bed is killing my back.
2. I need to get something to eat but I don't feel like cooking.
3. I'm going to Jessica's dance recital today with the Dison family.
4. I've still got a ton of stuff to do for the ceremony on Sunday.
5. The class of 2010 graduated yesterday. :(
6. As I sat in their graduation, memories that I had pushed to the back of my mind poured forward. I pushed those memories back for a reason! It was a bittersweet day.
7. If I don't get my happy butt up soon, I'm going to be late.
8. Every night I have wonderful expectations as far as reading is concerned and then I fall asleep next to my book....
9. Pretty is what changes what the eye arranges?
10. JABBERWOCKY!

A compilation of the past few days..

1. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!
2. I'm going to the Laughing Cat tonight.
3. I haven't been able to listen to a lot of music lately. :/
4. Fortunately, I am listening to some good music now.
5. I still have to pick up a few hydrangeas.
6. I want to have my water balloon fight!
7. I want to go on a picnic.
8. I'm talking to Brittany McNally!
9. I really don't know what I want to do anymore.
10. Money.
11. I'm pretty hungry.
12. I hate this freaking soap opera that is on.
13. Melissa Dison is breaking free.
14. Two-headed boy there's no reason to grieve. The world that you need is wrapped in gold silver sleeves. Left beneath Christmas trees in the snow I will take you and leave you alone. Watching spirals of white softly flow over your eyelids and all you did will wait until the point when you let go.
15. Why did people start shaving their legs?
16. What happened to our riches and wonders?
17. I think there are trolls living in the Dison's attic.
18. I would like to go to the park today.
19. I think I just gave Piper a concussion. I'm so sorry, Piper!
20. Her ears were awake. O_O
21. When is there going to be an INCREDIBLE original musical on Broadway again?
22. I'm love watching the wedding videos on AFV.
23. Have I posted this before? Katie Rocco showed this to me.
24. I like the idea of the beach.
25. I would like to buy a bathing suit so I can go to the beach only to further appreciate the idea of the beach.
26. I love when little kids freak out when they find out their parents are expecting another child.
27. Does anyone out there listen to Tegan and Sara?
28. I'm still waiting for SG to call me back.
29. I'm going to write a book one day.
30. I will be working on the computer or out and about for the day and come across something that will trigger suitcases full of nostalgia to come flying at me, smacking my face with great force. Some of those same triggers will cause me to remember the most joyful of thoughts and feelings, which should make me blissful, but always leave me far worse emotionally than I was before. Does that make ANY sense? I was listening to a song a few minutes ago and it reminded me of a cool October day. I use to picture the scene a lot growing up. I would try to describe the memory but I wouldn't do the image justice. Remembering that imaginary moment just depressed me a bit.
31. I'm living in a fantasy world.

(YESTERDAY)

1. I hated missing April's senior showcase.
2. The H button on my keyboard is kinda broken.
3. I hope Drew is okay in Orlando. Boo!
4. I'm excited to try the Indian food my Mom is bringing me tomorrow.
5. I can still feel the wheezing in my lung.
6. I need to try to get to sleep before 3am. Darn steroids!
7. There is a suicidal moth in my family room!
8. Bloops.
9. I want to get away.
10. I think I'm going to go away this summer.

1. Why do I google the ingredients in my food while I am eating said food?
2. I'm practicing Indian Folk Music today!
3. Someone make me get my car into the shop.
4. Someone make me clean my car.
5. Maggie looks like a giant rat.
6. I need to practice my turkey call!
7. I want to have people over for dinner.
8. I would also like all of us to cook dinner together.
9. I need to get into the doctor for several reasons.
10. IFM up soon!

I'm feeling normal again.

1. I need to call Sacred Grounds.
2. I had fun spending time with Roger and Drew the other night.
3. Check out the band Treelight Room.
4. I'm looking forward to hanging out with my Mom tonight.
5. I need to thank Sarah for introducing me to LUSH.
6. I'm looking forward to starting my dance classes again with Mishell!
7. I love pomegranate plum Tazo tea.
8. I feel like I wasted my day because I woke up at 3pm!
9. I just took the quiz, "WHICH SEUSSICAL CHARACTER ARE YOU" and got Jojo.
10. Someone just said the name Gertrude on Wheel of Fortune. Seussical is following me.

I am not inspired. I haven't had the desire to create a new post for quite a while now. Maybe when I get out of my funk, you'll have something to look through. Until then, I'm going to keep my thoughts to myself and try to fix ten random things instead of writing about them.

As most of you know I have been EXTREMELY sick. I really wanted to update my blog but I couldn't get to a computer and really focus. This next post is one that will be continuously edited and added too. In a perfect world, it would be finished and you all would have a special treat. BUT it is incomplete and a continuous work.

I would like to give you a taste and let you know that I will add others as I go.


This is my blog so I can do whatever I want.

Kate

You are incredibly beautiful. There is not a single person on this planet that remotely reminds me of you. I find you very interesting and I love hearing what you have to say. I love that you are opinionated about many, many things and you try your best to stand your ground no matter what kind of circumstances you are facing. I hope you find your David Tennant. You may not find your Dr. Who but I sincerely hope that you one day, find exactly who you are looking for. You are a strong and very independent women and I think that you will have a very fulfilling life because of those qualities. We went through something quite terrible this year but I'm kinda glad it happened. It just proves that if we can get through something that bad, we can get through almost anything. Maybe not a zombie attack but...you know? Right? Don't be afraid to go if you have to. Sometimes you have to move on. You're allowed to make the next step whenever you feel ready. I'm glad that next step is not miles away.

Roger

I never get to tell you how much I care about you. I'm glad that Drew has a friend like you. Like Kate, and many others, I have never and will NEVER find a person that reminds me of you...except the Professor from Futurama. I can't help myself! In my opinion, you strive to make yourself a better person. I don't feel that you have observer bias. I think you look at every situation for what it is and take note of every detail...even when those bits of information don't exactly add up to what you've always thought. Does that make any sense? I think that is why you have felt the way you have recently. I think we all start to question what we believe and why we believe those things and get a little freaked out. And I think it is terrifying when we do. This is an internal speech that I have written in my head so it may not make any sense. Thank you for being who you are. I hope that you are always Roger and you always stay true to who you are. Thank you for being my personal Jeff Mangum and singing to me. Hopefully you didn't adopt the Frank obsession. Or did you? O_o I look forward to seeing you soon.


Katie

I don’t know what to say to you. We’ve spent so much time together I think we are turning into each other. I’m not sure which mannerisms are mine and which ones are yours. We have so many inside jokes I had to delete some of my memory that I use for school. I’m failing btw. I want to let you know that I think you are one of the most beautiful people I know. And I mean in. You are FUNNY, and I mean funny and you’re gorgeous and a magnificent human being. Like others, we’ve had our rough times. I never want to go back. I want you to know that you’re always going to be considered one of my very best friends and I love you with every fiber of my being. I never get to tell you that. Someday I want to sit down and just talk to you and I want us to be honest with each other. I never want you to feel like we're not good enough friends to be able to approach each other. We are TOO good of friends to let something stupid tear us apart. I am so sorry for anything and everything that I have ever done to hurt you and I hope that you will tell me if I am doing something wrong. I appreciate every single thing you do for me. You are a wonderful friend. It kills me to know that you are going to have to go to college eventually. Well…not if I can help it. I never want to stop being your friend and I never want you to stop being mine.

My last blog was actually posted on Friday.

1. I think everyone is going to be okay.
2. I finally realized how I am supposed to help you.
3. I'm excited for my Ultimate Frisbee/tea party.
4. I'm in a weird place mentally.
5. I feel bad that I didn't get to call April before she fell asleep.
6. I usually give good advice and lately I've just felt like an out of step mother. I'm giving motherly advice which NEVER helps. Ugh.
7. I GUESS hanging out with Jake was fun. :)
8. I feel bad that I'm frustrated.
9. I left a box of chips and salsa in my car.
10. I'm tired of finding out that my friends are talking about me behind my back. It's getting kinda old guys.
11. Get Smart is making me feel better.
12. I have too much going on this week.
13. I want to go to the concert on Thursday.
14. Arielle is a dragon.
15. Summer tomorrow!
16. I'm going to see the Davinci exhibit tomorrow.
17. Own up to your actions.
18. I just want to curl up in my room and go to sleep.
19. I need NMH.
20. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Hey! My exams are almost over!

Random things I have accumulated over the past few days....

1. Prescott is graduating on Friday!
2. I'm sorry that I can't come to your show, Jake. I'll bring you flowers after!
3. I'm hanging out with my Mom watching Glee.
4. I'm hoping that the house will be finished soon because I'm tired of having my family room outside!
5. TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART!
6. Piper won't stop licking her face.
7. Why was Lady Gaga on American Idol?
8. I think everyone needs to have a reality check as far as trust goes.
9. One more exam to go!
10. Drew found my [title of show] c.d. and I've been listening to it ever sense.
11. How your hair can help the oil spill!
12. I never really got to tell the cast of Urinetown that they did a great job!
13. I just saw the funniest picture of a turtle eating mashed potatoes!
14. Ten things you didn't know about Super Mario.
15. Is it possible to describe yourself in one word?
16. THIS DROPS THE F BOMB SO IF YOU ARE EASILY OFFENDED DO NOT LISTEN TO IT. My speech teacher told me to listen to this song.
17. I am watching the most interesting documentary on sex appeal.
18. Obviously I'm not watching the documentary and Glee at the same time. It has taken a while to finish this!
19. Arielle is a polar bear.
20. Randi abandoned me!
21. I hate Sarah Mclachlan's animal rescue commercial! >_<
22. Roger is in town on Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope I can see him.
23. Do you like my new make up?
24. I love sociology.
25. I hoping to improve my sewing skills this summer.
26. I want to grow my own garden.
27. Who is the most interesting person in the world?
28. There is a purple room in my home. You would be so proud, Pook.
29. I have a mini disco ball in my room.
30. I lint rolled my bed again.
31. I am currently getting ready to go to Prescott's graduation.
32. I had a weird dream about Seussical last night.
33. Everyone needs to look at GOOGLE!
34. I'm tired of finding out qualities that I didn't know existed in my friends.
35. I wouldn't mind if they were good qualities.
36. I love Wednesday nights with Mishell.
37. You ask a question and "they" will answer.
38. I feel like Piper is too classy to be my dog.
39. I love confederate jasmine.
40. Why is the last time you lied to someone you cared about?
41. Do you remember when people were accustomed to thinking before they spoke?
42. The most influential people of the last 25 years.
43. What is your favorite type of dessert?
44. This is one of many ways to pass the time.
45. I have a great appreciation for nature.
46. I'm selling a lot of my clothing. Tell me if you're interested.
47. Which moment from last week was memorable, why?
48. Are you carrying any baggage?
49. If you only knew you had one week to live who would you spend your time with?
50. Who are you going to help today?

This next section is interesting.
Ethical dilemmas.

51. You are standing on the edge of a cliff with your sibling/important person/best friend and a bottle full of the cure for cancer. If you pick the bottle your person will die and if you choose your person millions of people will continue to die.

52. You are an inmate in a concentration camp. A sadistic guard is about to hang your son who tried to escape and wants you to pull the chair from underneath him. He says that if you don't he will not only kill your son but some other innocent inmate as well. You don't have any doubt that he means what he says. What should you do?

53. A pregnant woman is leading a group of people out of a cave on a coast is stuck in the mouth of that cave. In a short time high tide will be upon them, and unless she is unstuck, they will all be drowned except the pregnant woman, whose head is out of the cave. [But, fortunately, or unfortunately, someone has with him a stick of dynamite.] There seems no way to get the pregnant woman loose without using [that] dynamite which will inevitably kill her and her unborn child; but if they do not use it everyone will drown. What should they do?

54. Roger Smith, a quite competent swimmer, is out for a leisurely stroll. During the course of his walk he passes by a deserted pier from which a teenage boy who apparently cannot swim has fallen into the water. The boy is screaming for help. Smith recognizes that there is absolutely no danger to himself if he jumps in to save the boy; he could easily succeed if he tried. Nevertheless, he chooses to ignore the boy's cries. The water is cold and he is afraid of catching a cold -- he doesn't want to get his good clothes wet either. "Why should I inconvenience myself for this kid," Smith says to himself, and passes on. Does Smith have a moral obligation to save the boy? If so, should he have a legal obligation ["Good Samaritan" laws] as well?

55. This is funny. Tom[/Jane], hating his[/her] wife[/husband] and wanting her[/him] dead, puts poison in her[/his] coffee, thereby killing her[/him]. Joe[/Debbie] also hates his[/her] wife[/husband] and would like her[/him] dead. One day, Joe's[/Debbie's] wife[/husband] accidentally puts poison in her[/his] coffee, thinking it's cream. Joe[/Debbie] has the antidote, but he[/she] does not give it to her[/him]. Knowing that he[/she] is the only one who can save her[/him], he[/she] lets her[/him] die. Is Joe's[/Debbie's] failure to act as bad as Tom's[/Jane's] action?

56. You are in a remote mountain village. A group of terrorists has lined up 20 people from the village; they plan on shooting them for collaborating with the enemy. Since you are not from the village, you will not be killed. Taking advantage of your position, you plead with the terrorists not to carry out their plan. Finally, you convince the leader that it is not necessary to kill all 20. He takes a gun, empties it of all its bullets except one, and then hands it to you. He has decided to kill only one villager to set an example to the rest. As an honored guest and outsider, you will decide who will be killed, and you will carry out the deed. The terrorists conclude with a warning; if you refuse to kill the villager, then they will revert back to the original plan of killing all 20. And if you try any “funny business,” they will kill the 20 villagers and then kill you. What
should you do?

Your Options
1. Take the gun, select a villager, and kill him or her.
2. Refuse the terrorists' offer and walk away from the situation.

Section over!

57. Existentialism.
58. I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE A BASEBALL PLAYER AD JSKD HAHD.
59. Have a vision of Virgin Mary Day.
60. Hey Kate! I typed your name into uncyclopedia and this is what I found.
61. YOU BETTER LOOK AT THIS ROGER!
62. You're stupid.
63. You wish you were Morgan Freeman.
64. Tom Cruise is standing on a crate.
65. Sarcasm.
66. America.
67. I'm hungry.
68. I hope the entry satisfies you.
69. I'm going to finish getting ready.
70. I love you!

I know I haven't updated this in a while because of exam week BUT I will post something very awesome soon!

So I didn't really post a "ten things" yesterday so I guess I'll post thirty today!

1. My house got her make up done today. She is now a nice shade of yellow.
2. We MAY be having a garage sale on Saturday so if you would like to stop by you SHOULD!! After acting of course...
3. After the house is finished, I am going to have a party! We're going to have a water balloon fight!
4. THIS IS MY LIFE! T_T

5. I'm not too sure what to think about this.
6. Gun shot special effect fail.
7. Jeb Bush STILL hates us Kaella.
8. I am now... very afraid.
9. I believe that I have posted this video before but now the cat is a musketeer!
10. A few days ago, I was really bored sitting in my car. I called into a radio station and made up a story that went along with the topic that they were talking about.
11. I'm going to do this when I'm a teacher.
12. WHAT IS GOING ON!?
13. This is from 1000 Awesome Things... I love...Coming up with a lie so good in Balderdash that when they’re all read out you almost believe your own definition is the real one.
14. I love Sondheim trivia with Nick Hoop.
15. I also love that he showed me THIS awesome website.
16. I should be writing my speech but I'm watching television with my Mom instead.
17. Today, my mom typed "ho depot" into google instead of "home depot"
18. I want to be a profile.
19. I haven't watched Bones in such a long time.
20. What do you want for your birthday Roger?
21. What about you, Kaella?
22. I'm going to buy an lolcat.
23. I could go for some french fries.
24. I feel like I haven't been to acting in a while.
25. I had an extremely spiritual experience yesterday.
26. MY EYE!
27. I am ANGRY about the oil spill.
28. What do you think about Charlie Christ's switch to Independent?
29. Do you think I'll get my speech finished?
30. I'm wearing a towel on my head!

O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,
Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,
Thy power throughout the universe displayed.


Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!


When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,
And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.
When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeur
And see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.


Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!


And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.


Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!


When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,
And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"


Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!

It's time for a little self evaluation...

1. On a scale of "impaired judgment" to "Mel Gibson", how drunk are you right now?
2. On a scale of one to Chris Brown, how angry are you?
3. On a scale of Britney Spears to Miss South Carolina how dumb am you?
4. On a scale of Ciara to Lady Gaga how much of a hermaphordite are you?
5. On a scale of one to Wal-Mart, how much do you love China?
6. On a scale of Roethlisberger to Jake, how violated do you feel?
7. On a scale of Michael Jackson to Malcom X, how black do you feel?
8. On a scale of Rambo to RuPaul, how gay are you?
9. On a scale of Kaella to Cheech and Chong, how high are you?
10. On a scale of Anne Frank to Osama Bin Laden how good was my hiding spot?

By the way...did you know that Jack Kerouac was skitzophrenic?

I can't save the world. I find my self leaving sociology doubting the future of our planet, not that it is ours to own, hating the human race and a smidgen suicidal. Well, not suicidal.. I just want to punch myself in the face.

I wish I could promote social change in the areas of...

1. ...vegetarianism.
2. ...corporate America.
3. ...pollution.
4. ...net neutrality.
5. ...organic produce.
6. ...the tracking system.
7. ...global hunger.
8. ...poverty.
9. ...marraige.
10. ... mankind. Evolve again already! Fish? Lions? Llamas? My vote is for the llamas.

You know, all the unimportant things I'm never going to change! Woohoo.

1. Melissa Dison is a tennis LORD.
2. I watched MST3K with Drew today. Snausages.
3. Randi is telling me a wondeful story about unicorns and other strange things.
4. I'm tired of working towards being your friend when you are not returning that favor.
5. A round of applause for being stereotypical by aspiring to have success in an arts school.
6. May the 4th (Be with You): International Star Wars Day (Thank you Randi)
7. My magic brings Voldemort to the yard and I'm like, that's hurting my scar. (Thanks again.)
8. After watching The Lovely Bones, I had the trippiest dream. No, that is not a word.
9. I hope I can see Urinetown this weekend.
10. "Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

You should probably ask what the world needs as well.

Good morning!

1. I had the STRANGEST dream last night. It involved my friend Brittany, an angry serial killer that looked a lot like Jeffery Tambor from Arrested Development, and my sociology class.
2. I'm watching The Lovely Bones with my Mom.
3. I'm going to bring go-go boots back.
4. When did Susan Sarandon start playing grandmothers in movies?!
5. I'm craving chips and salsa.
6. I'm made of Pad Thai.
7. If I don't start on my sociology paper soon I'm going to fail!
8. Why is it that I cover half of my face (not my eyes) when I know something bad is going to happen in a movie? As if that is going to change the outcome of the character's decision....
9. When did we stop saying, "NEATO" and start saying, "bad ass"?
10. NO COMB OVER FOR YOU!

1. I hope you had fun at prom, Pook.
2. I still can't believe what I saw on Tuesday night with Jon and Randi. O_O
3. A few nights ago, I took a lint roller to my bed and made sure there wasn't a speck of dirt. I feel a little strange telling you this. I'm a freak!
4. I loved seeing you Katie!
5. I love the Godspell DVDs! I can't forget to pick up mine.
6. I can't wait to plant my butterfly garden with my Mom.
7. I've really got to practice.
8. You should have won your film festival Carl.
9. Sarah should have won some award for her outstanding performance.
10. Everyone needs to watch this video of Kaella.
11. It doesn't take very long for me to get lonely.
12. Drew finally got his chipmunk implants....I still need to get mine.
13. Boobs. You know what I mean Katie.
14. Why didn't I have a normal high school experience?
15. At least I found the tri-wizard cup today. That was pretty cool.
16. WHY AM I ASHY?!
17. Why can't I think of anything interesting to tell you?
18. I appreciate more and more every single day.
19. A mozzy bit me on my armpit!
20. IT'S SATTTUUUUUUUUURRDDDDDDDDAAAAAAAAY!

Websites or Videos.
1. THIS DOCUMENTARY IS A LONGER SERIES OF VIDEO BUT YOU NEED TO WATCH.
The Corporation.
2. www.freedocumentaries.com
3. www.sustainabletable.org
4. www.walmartwatch.com
5. www.opensecrets.org
6. The One Percent. This video is 1 of 8.
7. The Cost of a Coke.
8. The High Cost of Low Price. This video is 1 on 10.
9. A Class Divided. This video is 1 of 4.
10. Carried Through New York City.
11. www.current.com
12. The Tobacco Conspiracy.
13. The Human Footprint.
I cannot find the rest of these videos, but I'll let you know their names.
14. The Race to Absolute Zero - PBS
15. Secret of the Wild Child - PBS
16. Sick Around the World - PBS
17. McDonalds.
18. This is why I'm not going to die because I'm a vegetarian. I hate you all. Not really. Kinda.
19. On a happier note...PLEASE READ THIS! MUSICAL THEATRE.
20. I am the Walrus?